Weight Watchers...

here I come! I've decided to join WW online. I've done it in the past and thought this might be a good time to rejoin.. free sign up fee.. however, just before the holidays was probably a bad move.. haha.
I hope this change will give me the jump start I need to get back on track.. nothing but me being too lazy to turn on the wii and or insert the walk away the pounds dvd is the only excuse I can find for not exercising.. it's my body.. my mind.. my fault.. and I will get serious about it again.. afterall.. who is it hurting? ME, right?

So.. a month has passed...

this can't be good... or can it? I have been doing a small amount of exercise.. shame on me... I have been watching what I eat... but have eaten bread once and potatoes.. one bite.. once.. shame on me.. oh well.. back on track now..
What is the best thing that has happened? You all know about Jace.. that's one great thing.. another is.. can you stand it???... Ben and Zeke are spending the weekend with YaYa and PawPaw... mommy and daddy are on a mini vacation.. it was decided to let the boys come here instead of me driving there.. Thank you Courtney.. and thank you God.. prayers are answered! haha..
I'm thrilled to have both boys here.. and have high hopes of having all 5 of my grandkids on the farm at one time this weekend.. hopes.. nothing for sure..
I'm not sure how Maddie will feel about Zeke "camping" out here .. we'll see.. hopefully there will come a day when I can handle both of them "camping" out here.. one day.. maybe.. soon? LOL.. I won't push my luck.. right now I'm trying to get through nap/quiet time. Ben is sleeping.. Zeke is entertaining himself with chatter.. as long as he's not crying and isn't trying to escape I think all is good!!

Disappointed in myself..

I have rediscovered what ignoring exercise and not eating right can cause.. weight gain.. for the past 4 weeks I've exercised none.. well, little.. and have eaten bread 2 times.. once in sandwich form and once in pizza.. I've been crocheting a lot and not getting up and moving.. so, today when I climbed on the wii fit for a weight/body check I discovered I have gained.. for the first time since I started my journey. I've discovered exactly what happens when you get comfortable and think you've beat it.. you haven't.. reality smacks you right in the face.. so, back to my regular regime.. exercise.. no bread, no potatoes, more water, less lemonade!!
I have known for a few days I needed to get back to the program.. in the back of my mind that little voice kept saying "put down the crochet, pick up the wii controller".. but, I didn't.. and now I'm paying the price.. burning muscles, guilt and low self worth.. yep.. right back to the beginning.. dangit..
So.. another new day.. another new beginning.. think I may try to figure out the treadmill.. maybe I can crochet and walk at the same time? hahah...

I have a good excuse for not weighing Monday...

Jace Christopher Little made his appearance in the world and I was there.. waiting patiently.. well, maybe a little patiently.. Okay!! Okay.. not so patiently.. especially when Rick strolled in and said he saw Bubba holding a baby.. what a tease.. we still didn't know if it was a boy or a girl.. Carrie and I were fit to be tied.. Carrie is Michelle's mama.. After about 45 minutes we were sent a text from Christopher telling us the baby was here and to come back before they took "it" to the nursery.. Still had no clue ... the nurses were waiting for us at their station and told us we had to guess.. I told them to move out of the way this YaYa has a baby to meet... we all go in.. and Michelle is holding the baby.. BIG baby... we're step closer and they say "Meet Grace".. I started yelling we had a girl.. then was quickly told they said "Jace"... not Grace.. so, we had a boy!! My little tie breaker is a boy.. Jace Christopher Little.. all 8lbs 14oz, 21½ inches long.. such a sweet, sweet boy.. I can't believe my baby boy has a baby boy... makes me all teary!

Not a lot to say today..

or for the past several days apparently!
Courtney had Zeke's birthday party Saturday at the RDU airport!! What a great idea! Such fun.. it always thrills me to see my grandchildren in one spot. I would never need another thing if this would happen on a more regular basis! haha.. Zeke loves airplanes.. he was so cute watching them take off and land.. I asked him if he knew where the people were going as one plane took off.. he replied "yea, to Target".. sounds like they hit their local Target on a regular basis! haha
Off to exercise, shower then go to the office. We are going to visit my cousin this morning as well.. sad to say her daughter passed away Sunday... bless them all...

So... even though I've been a bad girl

and haven't been faithful to wii fit I've lost 4.6 lbs in the past 5 weeks... I didn't binge eat, didn't go over the edge with cravings, didn't even exercise as much as I told myself to.. and I still didn't gain.. Praise the Lord!
I'm going to be better at this whole life style change .. it's for my own good.. There will be no one to blame except myself if I fail at this.. please don't let me fail!

5 weeks? It's really been 5 weeks

since I've posted? I've been a bad girl! Little to none in the exercise way.. bad girl! Today is a new day! I have exercised, showered and am ready to face a new day.. a work day... haha..
I have discovered I may not like bread afterall. I've had a couple of pieces in the past few days .. needless to say my tummy wasn't happy, therefore, neither was I. I think white bread is a "days gone by" item from here on out. TMI I know! I know!
On a much lighter note.. we went to the beach! Can you believe it? I was actually on the sand, at the ocean, in the sun/clouds at the beach? What do you ask provoked this little trip? My family.. yep.. you got it.. Rik, Cindy, Courtney and all the grandies were there! *Christopher was at the beach... but not with us.. so we didn't see him .. at all.. sad...* I had a great time even though sand and surf are definately not my favorite items to deal with.. the grandkids were awesome!! I loved seeing them all interact .. I have the most amazing family and am so blessed!!
We went to the NC Aquarium at Fort Fisher one morning.. it was great.. my friend, Becky and her family were there too, although we didn't get to spend much time with them. It's a little difficult to co-ordinate 2 large families meeting when you have a total of 5 kids under the age of 5. It was great to see them even if it was just a few minutes!
I'm so glad to say my grandkids aren't afraid of the ocean. They all may not really like to go into the ocean, but they aren't afraid of it. Needless to say YaYa sat in a chair, in a somewhat shady spot *until the umbrealla blew away*, and enjoyed the whole event! I have some great video and pictures of the gang.. not all in one spot at the same time but ther again, 4 kids and one photo doesn't happen easily. I did "force" them to stand still at the aquarium for a group shot.. haha...
I'm off to the office.. I will be more diligent about posting.. and exercising. I promise.. afterall, it's to my benefit, right?